one for the season

tis the season to conspire. :)

Much Afraid

All of these things
I've held up in vain
No reason nor rhyme
Just the scars that remain
Of all of these things
I'm so much afraid
Scared out of my mind
By the demons I've made
Sweet Jesus, you never ever let me go
Oh, sweet Jesus, never ever let me go

I am reborn today. 

A fresh anointing. 

No more looking back. 

My life is Yours and Yours only. 

I will yield. This is all that I am, broken -  

It is in this desperation that I come to You, Lord, on my knees - frail. 

Much afraid. 

Oratio, Meditatio, Tentatio. ( Prayer, Meditation, Temptation) 

It is through our most heartfelt struggles that we realize how weak we really are - how much we need God - how we can never save ourselves, and what really is so SO amazing about grace. 

Abba, I need You now. 

 

The 23rd Psalm

Psalm 23

A psalm of David.

1 The LORD is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.

2 He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,

3 he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness
for his name's sake.

4 Even though I walk
through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil,
for you are with me;
your rod and your staff,
they comfort me.

5 You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil;
my cup overflows.

6 Surely goodness and love will follow me
all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the LORD
forever.

Amen.

Leap of faith

Things are moving, moving in mysterious ways and it's exciting!

it's funny how when you finally tune in to things around, when you finally moove with life, there's so much opportunities, so many good things.

Stagnancy is no good and sucks the soul out of you.
Change is in the air around the world, and change is in the air in these bones as well.

A fresh start, and a fresh hope!
I'm excited.

And this is just a 'blurb'. More articulate thoughts later, mayhaps.

whee.

Stuff you pass time with.

smooth e, smooth ee smooth ee smooth eeee..

Colorblind

I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready (repeat 3 times)
I am taffy stuck and tongue tied
Stutter shook and uptight
Pull me out from inside
I am ready (repeat 3 times)
I am fine
I am covered in skin
No one gets to come in
Pull me out from inside
I am folded and unfolded and unfolding
I am colorblind
Coffee black and egg white
Pull me out from inside
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am ready
I am fine
I am fine
I am fine
I am fine.

news that's not so schmancy

Noooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
And I really wanted to have a quarter-life-crisis 'celebration' here.

boo.

Worlds Apart

Soaring on the wings of selfish pride
I flew too high and like Icarus I collide

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
"dull the nails that still remain"
More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago
So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now
and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can't deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away